The secret PDF document

Dear Friends,

it happened just like I imagined…


well, not really.

Chapter TWO started when I woke up one day and realized things just were not working.

Sometimes you just have to turn the page, and start again.  This “turning the page” idea started as a secret pdf document on my computer.  Adding ideas and thoughts of things I’d like to write about, what chapter 2 might hold.  A place for reflexion and growth.  It also meant closing a chapter on what I thought was my biggest passion, a contemporary dance company I started here in Mexico from the ground up.

Chapter two is a sharing of my experiences along this soul-searching path, shared with the loving intention that perhaps my own journey and growth might resonate with others.


sharing aimed for




and getting better

The dare is to share.


A new friend recently shared this verse with me:  psalm 1:1-3

1 Blessed is the one

    who does not walk in step with the wicked

or stand in the way that sinners take

    or sit in the company of mockers,

2 but whose delight is in the law of the Lord,

    and who meditates on his law day and night.

3 That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,

    which yields its fruit in season

and whose leaf does not wither—

    whatever they do prospers.

I wish I had a better relationship with the Bible, I find a lot of my faith journey through talking to God, doing yoga, journaling, or through meditation ideas inspired by various sources – most recently through Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh.

Im kinda a mixed bag.  But I  so appreciate the verse my friend shared with me because its really where I am at right now.  I like the line about

“which yields its fruit in season”

I feel like I am in a bit of a self -imposed winter season, where no fruit yields but… for the reason that Im in a time of reflection. “Living in the question Mark” as they say.   I can only trust that seeds have been planted.  Maybe by God.  Maybe a long time ago.  And that truly I will rejoice in the moment not even for fruit, but for a bud of outward growth.  I feel I have so many ideas and inspiration of where I can go with my words, or writing or sharing more about the body, anatomy, wellness, self love and personal growth.  But I feel I don’t know where to start or how for that inspiration to have a public life.  It feels so secret right now.  This blog is perhaps one of those outward buds.

They say the 5th chakra is the delicate and beautiful balance between our heart and our head.  Its our VOICE, our public identity, how people see us, our word, the color blue, our expressivity outward.  

Perhaps at one moment I felt my dance company Ashley Meeder Movement Project was my calling, but Im beginning to believe it was something that had to be let go, so something else could come to light.  Or to be transformed into another form.

I pray that my heart will fly onto my tongue, and my intellect will kindly support it all. Welcome to Chapter Two.

this post is dedicated to leah fox who is daring me to share!  thank you leah for an amazing visit to mexico!

me and leah

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